It was an honor and a great opportunity to be part of an event that changed the lives of 3,500 participants! Not only that it was an honor, I believe that God really brought me there and serve Him with my time and talent because God knows I need that as a reminder of how great His love for me.
I’ve been in the community since 7 years old, started out as Kids For Christ. Growing up in the community made me feel righteous and straight forward. My parents actively serving in the community and the church since the day I was born, this made me live an almost perfect life, knowing the do’s and don’ts.
Yet, I had my experience of what I thought happiness could be during my growing up days! I never imagine myself doing such things, like what I said, I grew up in a straightforward family and yet there I was having “good time”. Then, boyfriend follows. I enter a relationship uncertain of where it will lead me. I know from the very start that what we’re doing is not right. But I was too blinded by the feeling of kilig and again of what I thought was happiness. It was a You-And-Me-Against-The-World-Thing that lasted for 4 years.
I finally decided to end that relationship because I’m tired of getting hurt, tired of giving everything without receiving anything in return, and the feeling of being not respected as a girl. Then here I am, fresh from a break-up, serving God with all my heart for a Live Pure Conference. Who would’ve thought that this conference could heal a broken heart? It made me realized that it was my choice to be in that situation, to be miserable getting hurt, to be miserable of the past that is haunting me. Breaking up with him was really a real freedom for me! I felt good that a big baggage of me was unloaded.
Now if you’ll ask me what is the status of my heart, I’m proud to say, I am experiencing total happiness because I found my one true love. He is the source of this happiness and I don’t want to disappoint Him. True enough, He is the only Man who will always be true to His promise and that He will never fail me.
Still, I am hopeful that someday I’ll experience more happiness far greater from what I am experiencing right now because I said YES to Him. (Alam ko naman na matagal na Niya akong nililigawan eh, blinded lang ako sa past relationship ko.) I couldn’t ask for more for He will take care of everything..of what He knows who and what’s right for me.
I stand firm with my decision of turning 180 degrees away from sin, from the things that imprisoned me. Now I’m letting go of all my baggages, struggles and insecurities. For I was created in the image and likeness of God, I am precious and would not settle for anything else. I know it’s not easy, living pure is an everyday decision and with God’s grace, I know He will help me go on with my life.
I love You, Lord and I will serve You in any way You want me to serve You!